urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tragicendingx ...now theres no beauty in bleeding mascara. bleedtheromancex 2006-02-06T18:24:03Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tragicendingx:28482 2006-02-06T18:24:03Z 2006-02-06T18:24:03Z so..everything sucks. i'm tired of going<br />from boy to boy. honestly is it that hard<br />to love me? seriously. every guy i want a long<br />relationship with ends a week later. i'm so sick<br />of it. i want to be in love again. i want to <br />be able to trust a guy again. right now i'm pretty<br />much done with guys. the only one even worth talking<br />to is tyler. but he'll probably just end up like they<br />all do..a complete lying asshole. chris and i broke up.<br />he said it was cause we would have broken up anyways.<br />and that his heart changed. apparently his emotions are<br />crazy. i'm stil pissed. i liked him a lot. what the <br />fuck ever though. he's just another guy. i can't wait<br />for saturday. i'm gonna mosh my ass off. & find a new<br />guy for phylicia. she deserves to be happy even if<br />i'm not. i'm miserable. my medicine isn't working or something.<br />i haven't smiled all day. i barely ate anything. i keep hoping<br />that chris will change his mind and want me back. <br />i'm pathetic i know. my weekend sucked. i sat at home by<br />myself minus phylicia coming over. thank god for her. i need<br />a job. i have nothing to do with my time anymore. no boyfriend.<br />no weekend plans. since my best friend works every weekend.<br />idk. corey was supposed to pick me up yesterday but dicked me <br />over. so whatever. i feel like i have no friends left and that<br />my world is falling apart. i guess i just have to try and<br />be optimistic and hope that things will get better. <br />my OCD has gotten worse to the point where it controls my life.<br />i'm gonna goto my phsyciatrist saturday morning so ill talk to<br />him about it. i think i'll make a list actually. cause i'm not<br />good at remembering things. but yes i need help. i just want<br />to be normal. why the fuck does all this bad shit happen to me?<br />honestly i'm fucking cursed. my life has sucked. for no reason.<br />i didn't even do anything to deserve this. oh well. maybe i'm<br />just being pessimistic cause everything sucks right now.<br />all i asked was love me.<br />thats not too much is it? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tragicendingx:27441 2005-09-30T17:05:22Z 2005-09-30T17:27:06Z <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v347/x0xKiSsThIsx0x/random/scars.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tragicendingx:24632 2005-07-28T19:45:32Z 2005-07-28T19:45:32Z im getting tired of this shit. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tragicendingx:20099 2005-06-27T05:50:01Z 2005-06-27T05:50:01Z <p>I<font size="6"> <font color="#ff0000">Love</font></font> <font size="7">[ </font><strong><font color="#330033">D<font color="#ff0000">u</font>s<font color="#ff0000">t</font>i<font color="#ff0000">n</font> M<font color="#ff0000">i</font>l<font color="#ff0000">l</font>e</font><font color="#ff0000">r</font></strong> <font size="6"><font size="7">]</font> <font color="#ff0000">More</font></font> Then He Loves Me!!!!</p> <p><font color="#ff0000" size="5">&lt;3</font> x <font size="6">infinity</font>. plus 5 whatever you say.</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:tragicendingx:19614 2005-06-15T01:26:29Z 2005-06-30T04:55:25Z <img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v347/x0xKiSsThIsx0x/random/fobanner2.bmp" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com">